Follow the Small Moments
Follow the small moments of bliss – don’t think. That’s what I have to keep reminding myself. I yell at my brain to shut up, because I am in a period of anxiety; high stress; great change. I give myself the okay to yell at my brain, even though I am not a yeller, because for now it works. When I get so tired of my overthinking and perseverating, yelling works to snap me out of the negative thoughts.
So – don’t think; just do. I woke up and walked the dog, then immediately did yoga. I did the very simplest meditation of 10 minutes with just rain sound. It felt glorious. There were no voices teaching me anything or guiding me anywhere, and I could actually quiet my mind.
I am now just writing this blog post, that I pre-wrote by hand. I favor hand-writing, with a gel pen (today’s color was brick red), on plain lined paper and a clipboard. I will then just go ahead and post it with whatever photo on Unsplash I can find that conveys small steps forward without thinking.
I hand-wrote 3 pages this morning, without journal prompts or an agenda. Except to jot down what had floated in on my dog walk; about using today to just do; not think.
I’m not in a mental place right now where I can focus on one of my usual workshops in To Be Magnetic, so I have to be gentle and easy with myself. I am in child state where I am fragile and I need things simple, basic, and soothing. (Except when I yell at my brain to stop thinking) (Sorry, brain). If I’m being honest, this is the way I should operate every day, instead of filling my head with so much content coming in from external sources.
This is how I would like to exist most of the time – with a simple, basic routine. No following someone else’s course or path. No listening to someone else’s voice guide me in meditation, no reading someone else’s words telling me their learned wisdom.
It is my time to listen to my own inner whispers – to let them get louder until they are nice, strong voices. They will replace the anxious racing thoughts and keep me grounded, and I can feel it working already, and it feels like relief.
I started a list of all the things I am following today that feel good and right, and here’s how it is going so far:
- Wake up super early.
- Walk Ida in a light rain.
- Make my iced green tea.
- Do Yoga with Adrienne out in the main room.
- Hand-write 3 pages while writing out what I wanted to blog about this morning.
- Watch a Joe Dispenza video.
I’m going to carry this list around with me all day to remind me to follow my little blisses and keep track of them. I get that dopamine hit every time I add one, so I have officially gamified following what feels good. You’re welcome for that life hack.
Want to watch the Joe Dispenza video? BRAINWASH yourself, lol.
Cover Photo by Jack Skinner on Unsplash
